Adrien hates you all (but not you S.)

... And now I feel insecure.

I just awaken from a dream. A fucking one month & an half pleasant dream as I never had before. I felt powerful, I felt alive, I felt happy but it's over for now. the feelings and the memories are not over of course but it's the end of a periode I guess. It's not the end literally and fortunately because if it is, it also mean that I'm dead, buried where i'm fallen...

I just need something I can't catch right now and it desapoint me to much anyway...

But I don't give a shit, january will give me a new life after the jump and at this time I could finally have what I miss, I could finally find myself...

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[[Adri]]

oh and I forget one important thing to me:

Love! A. ;)

[[Adri]]

Sorry I'm so late, I didn't see your message before...

I've a quotation but I can't remember the writer's name now (& it's desapointing me)...
Anyway, He said something like "Love is the way to find your richness in another one". Maybe for people it's just bullshit but not for me basically. I mean, I believe in it on my own plan.

So I guess I found myself through you in a way (of course I already found a part of myslef before "us") but before to find myself I've especially found a beautiful being with who I'm able be what I am and all that implies. You know what I feel and what I think about you and your personality.
It's not the "love vision" you know! :)

I'm not putting you on a pedestal, I don't see you as an icon or something.

I hope that you follow me, I don't want to lose you...

Anyway, we spoke about that already in better conditions than here and we can do that again if you want to...

And YES of course it's not over and it's great but this break is one of the harder time of my life!
In a few days we'll be together again and for good this time! ^^
I'm SO exited you know!

It's difficult but I try to be as brave as I can. Sometimes I failled but I kick myself and "here we go again".

[S.]

Are you actually looking for yourself through me? Cause you would be on the wrong way.
Anyway, it wasn't a dream you've awaken from, it's not over.
It's just a break, I understand you're having a hard time but in another month and a half you won't remember it. And so will I. Be brave ;)

Love, S.